This Kinda Sucks....

I think my cockiness is catching up to me. I used to boast that i rarely got sick, only once a year or less. Within one month i've been sick twice with a cold and now with a mental illness. Not sure what to owe the mental illness to, it could be that seasonal type of depression or maybe i'm fooling myself! It's been quite rough though, especially for my man. One morning he woke me up with a bouquet of roses and the next day he couldn't take it anymore. I spoke to my mom about it, including the self injuring, and have decided to go to the doctor and get some meds. I've been through all of this over 10 years ago as a teenager, it's much easier to deal with this time. Although i have much more to lose at this point in my life due to the illness, at least i can see it right away.
A part of me is excited to get some medication for this because i still remember the exact moment 11 years ago when i felt the positive effects of it. I was playing baseball in gym class and some people were giving me batting tips and instead of freaking out on them i happily accepted their help. Meanwhile, in my head i was like 'what's happening here?? i'm not a psycho anymore!' lolol
Although i don't remember much about the duration of the treatment. I have no idea how long i was on the pills, don't really remember taking them either. I slept alot but was content. So I guess we'll see what happens this time!!!