This Kinda Sucks....

I think my cockiness is catching up to me. I used to boast that i rarely got sick, only once a year or less. Within one month i've been sick twice with a cold and now with a mental illness. Not sure what to owe the mental illness to, it could be that seasonal type of depression or maybe i'm fooling myself! It's been quite rough though, especially for my man. One morning he woke me up with a bouquet of roses and the next day he couldn't take it anymore. I spoke to my mom about it, including the self injuring, and have decided to go to the doctor and get some meds. I've been through all of this over 10 years ago as a teenager, it's much easier to deal with this time. Although i have much more to lose at this point in my life due to the illness, at least i can see it right away.
A part of me is excited to get some medication for this because i still remember the exact moment 11 years ago when i felt the positive effects of it. I was playing baseball in gym class and some people were giving me batting tips and instead of freaking out on them i happily accepted their help. Meanwhile, in my head i was like 'what's happening here?? i'm not a psycho anymore!' lolol
Although i don't remember much about the duration of the treatment. I have no idea how long i was on the pills, don't really remember taking them either. I slept alot but was content. So I guess we'll see what happens this time!!!

One Amazing Person....(one of many)

If you haven't seen 'God Grew Tired of Us' about the lost boys from Sudan...you must!!!! Don't get turned off by the fact that it's a documentary, it's totally dope! It definitely left me with much admiration for these men. I couldn't do what they did....
Here's a video of John Bul Dau on The Hour....he was in the documentary and has come such a long way from the refugee camp in Kenya.

Sweet Sixteen

Why do peeps hate on Miley Cyrus so damn much??? She's on the AMAs tonight and it happens to be her sixteenth bday as well. She looks darling and she's a great speaker on the red carpet. She seriously seems like a regular teenage girl as far as her demeanor which i can appreciate as someone who was always trying to act better and older than i was in my teen years.
Whats with the hate people??? Jealous cause a sixteen year old girl is better than you???
Either they don't exist to us, or we're hating on them....go figure.....sheesh

What Politicians USED to be like.....

I stole this from perezhilton.com
In regards to Proposition 8...i totally agree with this man
The only problem is that to have this mentality as a policitian, it kind of makes it hard to stick to 'policies'.
Oh well...it's a great theory!

"All, too, will bear in mind this sacred principle, that though the will of the majority is in all cases to prevail, that will to be rightful must be reasonable; that the minority possess their equal rights, which equal law must protect, and to violate would be oppression."

- Thomas Jefferson, the third President of the United States, the principal author of the Declaration of Independence, and one of the most influential Founding Fathers

:(

I'm actually kind of terrified by the potential state of the world at the moment. On one side we have this long awaited accomplishment by Barack Obama, and of course with great achievement comes haters. Witnessing the underdog succeed can be quite a blow to the ego of those snotty republicans and others that feel like they have to be above certain cultures and social circles. Suddenly there is all this protesting of laws and propositions and racial slurs and pointing fingers etc. etc.
We are so fragile as a population....i could list all the ways but i'm sure you feel it too. Lets love! Please!

New Mixtape!!!

I totally looooove this mixtape right now....


dj NaNa's Fall to Winter Mixtape
http://www.sendspace.com/file/n3v6re

I'm usually not a fan of mixtapes but I haven't stopped listening to this since i picked it up on Halloween.

dj NaNa just somehow does it right everytime.

You can download it by clicking on the link.

Prop 8

Is 51% of the vote really enough to amend a constitutional right?? Guess so!! This is pretty damn disgusting to me. One massive step forward with electing a black president and several massive steps back with deciding that gays don't have the right to marriage. Especially in a state that is so democratic, it's hard to believe that Proposition 8 was passed. Some say it was the high turn out of African-Americans that were suspected to vote in favour of Prop 8 because of cultural beliefs that made the difference. Other speculation points the finger to the Mormon church. I imagine it was a combination of those that truly believe that marriage is reserved for a man and a woman. That's just it, we live in a democracy and there just happen to be about 2% more people that don't approve of gay marriage than those that do. What puzzles me is that the 51% took rights away from the 49%. Because they don't agree with what the 49% percent would have the right to partake in if they so desire, they take the right away completely. Maybe this is an inaccurate analogy on my part but this is the way that i see it. Actually it reminds me a tiny bit of the holocaust. Hitler squashed the rights of Jews....i know that's an extreme comparison but in a nation that has happily elected Barack Obama as their leader with much hope for PROGRESS, the removal of rights is so counter-productive.
One day i think this rant is going to sound ridiculous...as in 'what? there was a ban on gay marriage?? wtf!'...Same as women and blacks not being able to vote, among other rights restrictions. With a president like Obama, i believe the masses are going to inadvertently be cured of inequality over time. That's a pretty extreme belief, but may i remind you of Martin Luther King's 'I Have A Dream' speech!
And for those of you who truly are against gay marriage, keep this in mind...it doesn't mean YOU have to marry a gay person!!